If I weren't me, would I want to be like me...?

As I sit here at work and reflect upon the day I have had.... believe me, its been a day, I asked myself the question, "If I were not me, would I want to be like me"?  Lately, I have been what I would call a disaster.  I don't feel on top of things and at times and feel as though someone has taken a bat to my knees knocking me off balance sending me tumbling to the ground.  After a bit of grumbling, I pull myself back upright just to have the same thing happen again.  Life experience has taught me that I am not the only person to experience this patterned torment.  In other words, I am not one only person out there with the title of "Manager" in the world.  Over the years I have had my share of "bosses", some good, some not so good and some down right nasty.  On a side note...True story... I had a boss who, years later, wrote to a regional church organization accusing me of having an affair with a particular individual who was happily married.  After the fact, I found out she had some sort of sickly fatal attraction to the man and was jealous I was friends with him..... ya, I know what your thinking... COO KOO!!!  Anyways, back to my thoughts.... My question to myself is, am I the type of manager I myself would have respect for?  Do I handle situations with a quiet, yet strong leadership intent?  Do I resonate fear of challenging tasks?  Bottom line, being a manager is tough stuff and doing it respectibly is even tougher.  After my day today, I don't want to be a manager, but I think after a night of contemplation and reflection, I may wake up tomorrow with a new perspective and understanding of who I am in the world of managment:)